Still searching...

It's been a long while. Almost a year. Yet looking back, there's been no significant improvements in the way I'm living life, and nothing has change much of the way the family lives. I shouldn't say there's no headway....you kids have learnt lots over the months, grown taller and talked more. There's plenty of growing up, but guess it's me that has stayed stagnant. Life can be of ups and downs, perhaps at this moment of time it heading towards south for me, thus the negativeness in my writing....

In such a negative environment, what I really need is a purpose, a purpose in life that can propel me further. Well, there's always to strive for the family, but that is of a long term purpose. What I needed now is a short term destination. So...let's start planning

My long term goal is to provide for Christine and the children, and by provision I meant long term provision. Financially, that can be achieve by having at least two properties, one for them to stay in and one to generate income. My current status is nil, but I'm working towards it. I believe the first should be realized in a couple of years time, with my target on the second before Heidi turns 12. In other aspects, I must continue to educate them in my best ability. That, to be maintained, would be the three most important values in the following sequence i.e. kind hearted, be smart and be pretty. For Heidi, the best I can give is to instill these values. For Ross and Ryan, to be a good person and be independent.

My short terms goals should be something more carefully crafted. They should be aligned to the long term goal. Financially, I should continue to invest to maximize gains, but this should include looking at ways other than just buying stocks and staying invested. I have given myself till end of 2011 for sourcing new strategies. I have also planned to purchase an apartment by Jun 2012. Of course, this would be largely dependent on the market, but will need to do some homework to ensure a good buy. I also have thoughts of setting up a special needs centre. This will have to be carefully planned. The better the plans, the larger the cost avoidance and higher the success. This, I will keep it to end Jun 2012 for the planning. In the meantime, I will also need to check out my advance diploma certificate from JCU.

So, having these short term goals listed out, I guess the new year should be more meaningful. Let's work together and hope for the best. Remember this kids, it doesn't matter if things are not moving the right direction at times. They shouldn't be in the first place, since that's what makes life wonderful. All you need to do is reconsolidate your thoughts and set your goals. Don't lose focus of what is most important in you. By doing this, you're now leaving the dark and moving towards the rainbow.